I don’t know about you but I can’t believe how quickly this year has flown by. It’s quite scary actually because before you know it, you are turning 50 and wondering where life has gone! I look back at the beginning of this year and look at the new years resolutions made, the attempts to keep them and then the endless partying and socialising and although fun, it definitely isn’t an achievement.
The thing with me is that I need to feel like I am constantly achieving something- I don’t know why or what I am trying to prove. I don’t think it is a bad thing, just maybe I put too much pressure on myself to do things. On the flip side of that, I also think that life is too short and I/we need to do lots of other things rather than get drunk or high of a weekend.
I have come to realise that I need to have achievements in life to make me feel fulfilled. I need goals, I need to feel that I am working towards bettering myself both personally and professionally. However this year I have done neither. So what’s the stumbling block?? I really don’t know, hopefully I will get my mojo back soon. All I know is that winter is near and I don’t want to be entering yet another year and injecting the same principles I have been following (or not) to date, but need to make sure next year counts!
Yesterday I really felt irrational towards the end of the day to the point that I wanted to hand my notice in (again) not for any particular reason but because I thought I deserve better from a job, I deserve respect, responsibility, a fat wage check and career progression! Although very true, my sensible head interrupted my thought process and interjected flashes of a down and out female, on the doll, no money and depressed- so I thought better not. I need to do this properly and find a job first before I leave!
I suppose I have two options, find contract work or stick this out for a little while because I think I wouldnt mind doing a bit of travelling next September. Yes this is a semi plan- find a better job that is contract for 10 months or so, or stay where I am and get as much out of them (and them out of me no doubt) to make my CV look very attractive and then save save save and come next September fly away for 6 months!! Oooh it sounds so appealing, and I should do it now while I have the chance, when I haven’t started doing the whole real career thing, mortgage, babies (whoa whoa whoa- not yet) but you get my drift?
Even the man wants to come- so there is some real thought behind this. How exciting!! Yes so I need not be silly over the next 10 months or so and either find contract work asap or stay put and shut up!
So what else has been happening- well I have been asked by my inspirational friend to host her book launch in November for her autobiography “Then life took control” http://www.thenlifetookcontrol.co.uk/. What an honour and I can’t wait to do it but so amazed that she has chosen me to host the evening. This woman is truly inspirational and I think we could all learn a lot. I better start practising my speech!!
I’m currently looking into launching a site, but it is very early days and will take some time and money but hey watch this space. I have also been delving into bits and pieces of research regarding tax and houses and how to get on the property ladder with no money. Apparently there are ways to do it such as joint ventures but I couldn’t do anything like that at the moment having no experience- so I need to learn as much as possible. I have also given up smoking – it’s been 5 days- so just need to stick at it but probably explains why I have been a tad grouchy.
Anyway until the next……
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