Sometimes life throws you a curve ball. Everything can be going great and then bam! Things start to change, the ship starts sinking and you are left paddling without a life jacket. The man you met – who you thought was the man of your dreams ends up breaking your heart, the businesses that you believed in, start sucking the life and soul out of you and your pockets. The dream of making it in the entertainment industry starts to get fainter and fainter as you receive knock back after knock back and all of these combined sets you on a rollercoaster to the pits of depression.
You feel a failure as you haven’t made it like you really believed you would and instead of living it up you are living from credit card to credit card burying your head in the sand and not knowing how to make anything better.
You start avalanching down that slippery slope of depression and laughter is replaced with tears and sometimes you don’t even know why you are crying.
You gave your heart and soul to so many things including a relationship you thought was going somewhere but everything fails miserably and somehow you blame yourself.
What if I did this or what if I did that, acted a certain way or played a different tactic. Somehow you end up second guessing, self doubting and self sabotaging everything. I’m not good enough, this isn’t for me, I’ve tried – I can’t, I am not, I don’t have.
Yes, this narrative has been running through my head at times for several months. Challenges would present themselves and I would deal with them but every little one took a chip out of me each time, and after each one, it became harder to get back up.
I did though! Amongst the tears and the multitude of emotions and thoughts, I pushed on. As hard as it was, I carried on and that was also down to my friends and family who stood by me. It wasn’t easy and at times I didn’t see the light at the end of the tunnel.
I suppose my biggest lesson was that there will always be hurdles and life does throw the odd curveball. It can test you, make you and break you but it’s down to you how you deal with it.
Sometimes you have to persevere as out of challenges and sadness comes great things, great lessons to be learned and experiences that make you stronger.
I’m now on track again and amazingly things are just falling into place, opportunities are presenting themselves and it’s amazing what the universe is guiding me towards.
I think that when things get you down, it’s important to never let go of the things you truly believe or want. Everything happens for a reason and you need to trust that the universe is doing things to help nudge you in a certain direction or help you learn a valuable lesson.
Never give up as you are a unique being and have so much to offer. Even if you haven’t realised what your gift is – there is no one like you and you are destined to make a footprint on this earth.